Tuesday, January 8, 2008

It must have killed me, 'cause I feel dead!!!

The past week has been very difficult for me. The situation could seriously be made into a t.v. movie, which is why I am still not in a position to talk about it quite yet. It's that deep!!!

It took a full 4-5 days for me to recuperate somewhat, I went for a few bike rides and took some pictures. I was unable to study and right now thats all that should truly be on my mind. I am almost at the end of my time at this program so I have slight worries in my mind about being homeless myself. With so much on my plate it would easy to say, "fuck this" and rob someone or do something which would put me in harms way, with the justification that I could use the money and if nothing else...my mama needs it!!! Sad to say, thats enough for me to make me make some awful decisions. But on the flip side after doing eight years in prison, I know that, that is not in the equation...you feel me?

Well tomorrow it's back to business, got to go to school. Peace

1 comment:

create said...

LANNIE..LISTEN..THIS IS SHEILA..YOUR GIRL..POETRY..REMEMBER
LET'S GET SOMETHING STRAIGHT ,...UP AND PERSONAL..YOUR MY ACE BOO GOO..MY SPOKEN STRENGTH WHICH FEEDS ON SIMPLE..NOT IGNORANT EXAMPLES..DON'T U GO THIS FAR AS TO THINK OTHERWISW..YOUR BRAIN TALKS TO ME..IT SPEAKS TALENT..WISDOM ..NOT THE THIRD DEGREE..2 OR THEN SOME...U WILL GET OUTTA THAT HOUSE WITH A PLACE// AJOB...START YOUR RESUMES
GET IT DONE..HAVE MOM TO THINK ABOUT..GOT STREET KNOWLEDGE GOT WRITING SKILLS...GOT ARTISTRY..GOT THINGS TO DO FOR YOUR LIFE U LET GO...YOUR GETTING ME MAD..CRYING NOW,,GOTTA PAUSE,,WHAT ARE U DOING
THAT'S RIGHT SHE LOST TH HOME ..RIGHT SHE LOST U FOR YEARS AS WELL..WHAT ARE U THINKING MAN..ALL THAT U DO..ALL THAT U SAY TO ME...I CAN'T THIS..I LOVE U MAN
IDO..NO SHIT..NOY GONNA LIVE LIKE LANNIE PAST...LANNIE GOTTA LIVE FOR FAMILY HOME..NEW HORIZONS..NEW CONCEPTS NEW ADVENTURES WITH YOUR SOUL...COPPING OUT..NOT YOU..NOT MY BOUY..YO..CUT IT OUT ,,KNOCK IT OFF WITH THAT KINDA TALK..RECIPICATE..TURN YOUR BACK TO HELLS FIRE AND LIGHT THE WAY TO EXISTENCE..WARRIOR..I DON'T IDENIFY WITH WORDS TOO UNSPOKEN FOR REFUSE AND STRENGTH..JUST MAKING IT WORK 4 U..LOOK ON MY PAGE..DAMIT HAVEN'T U BEEN KEEPING THE FOCUS ON TOMORROW..NOT YESTERDAY..I'M GETTING SICK AND TIRED OF MY BLACK BROTHAS ON THE STREET CORNERS COPING OUT BY WEAKNESS..DON'T LEAVE THAT PROGRAM STEALING..ROBBING....HATING YOUR FAMILY..THAT WHAT YOU'LL BE DOING..
MY SON DID THAT SAME SHIT...I SAT HIS ASS DOWN..2 RECIPICATE..BRETHE IN AND OUT..LET IT GO..GET A JOB..HELP OUT YOUR FAMILY..KING..DON'T... PLEASE..I'M THROUGH..PEACE..I NEED A NUMBER LANNIE ..U.. NOW..SHEILA